I dont know how to describe my mood~

just now taking phone with him...
i didnt realize it took me about 2 hours...
we didnt talk must thing also...
but yet can hang so long time...
i felt moodless today...
maybe too stress...
i no pay enough conncentration to our conversation...
is my fault...
another reason i felt moodless is...
about that day...
we argue...
he ignore me...
i felt really really sad...
then i not dare have a good talk with him...
although we are nothing now...
coz he dont like talk about past and sad thing...
but finally...
i pick up my heart and i ask him to make me feel better...
so that i wont think nonsense...
i wonder why he angry me that much that day...
and that day...
i realized that i am really deeply love him...
i felt scare to lost him...
before...
i always said...
i dont mind if he leave me...
coz he always the one who love me more...
care me more...
maybe is these reason which make me not appreciate him...
but now i am awake...
he is really a good guy...
and i know i will never found a second guy like him...
i knew is my fault by made him angry that day...
luckily he forgive me now...
i am really glad...
he tell me he really wanna breakup with me already...
maybe the God bless us...
he finally keep his tempered...
and forgive me...
but then at the end i knew why he felt so angry...
and when i wanna closed up the topic...
he angry...
coz he said i always cant understand what he said...
he is furious...
and he shut down the phone said wont call me today anymore...
i felt really sad...
my tear drop...
i thought i will end up the night with my crying face...
and cant study anymore...
after 3 minutes...
he call...
he said sorry with me...
i am really happy that time...
glad too heard his voice...
and glad to we end up our call with a sweet word...
i would like to tell myself now...
i will appreciate him more today onward...
will not purposely argue with him...
and i dont want to have querall with him anymore...
i really love you...