Is another sad day~

i told myself this morning...
today must have a good mood...
but i fail to do that...
just because of him...
again...
and again...
i force myself not to think about those unhappy thing...
but just i cant...
something happen make me cant stop thinking...
same like last few days...
we didnt sms much and didnt talk much phone...
the first call made me happy...
second call gave me normal feeling...
the last call...
at night...
made me really down...
i dont know why recently the relation seem got changing...
he no longer sweet to me...
easy angry with any small mistake i done...
am i too sensitive...
or something really made it changing...
i really feel that he no longer love me that much as before...
he close the phone with anger...
i close the phone with tear...
i cant stop thinking...
and my tear cant stop dropping...
i wonder why like that...
is it impossible for someone make mistake inside the world of love?
is it unforgetable?
i am thinking what should i do at the future...
suppose i try not to care him that much?
or less contact with him?
let the time pass and put down him slowly?
i wish i could...
but i really love him...
i love him because he was treat me too well before...
i love him because he really love me a lots before...
maybe before i didnt love him that much...
and i didnt appreciate him enough...
but then now i wish to love him deeply...
and appreciate him...
together with him forever...
am i too late?
i wish i wont regret at the end of my life...
i know if he leave me...
i will really really sad...
and blame myself why i never appreciate him...
God...
could you please bless me one more time?
i didnt request much...
i just wish...
we can back to the time we just together...
that sweet...
that happy...
i hope i will never drop any single tear while together with him...
dear...
i wanna tell you...
i really really love you...