A Happy Trip To Pulau Pangkor~

3 May to 5 May...
i spend three days happily with him for after exam vacation...
when i was still in exam week...
he told me he will bring me to a vacation after m exam...
i was really happy...
coz i was stress enough for the exam...
and finally can have a good relax time...
although this trip is not just our two people...
but still very happy we can play together...
3 May 2010 morning 8 am...
he come to fetch me at my home...
then go to his friend house to fetch his friend...
after that we move to jetty...
that day luck no good...
we buy 9 am bus ticket...
but after our breakfast...
is 9.05 am...
before we can reach the bus...
the bus pass in front of us...
we miss it...
without choice...
he drive the car to lumut jetty...
without preparation and car service...
we dont know the road...
watch signboard along the road...
after 3 hours we finally reach...
we bought ship ticket and book resort...
after 15 minutes...
we reach...
we rent motor and heading to our resort...
after having a bath we go out have a turn and find something to eat...
we find a kopitiam and order their Wantan Mee and Keow Teow Goreng...
cook by chinese and the Keow Teow is yummy...
this is my first time to Pulau Pangkor...
it has a beautiful sea scene...
is just a small island...
with not much entertainment...
but i like it because he is beside me...
we decided not to play anything today...
just drive around to see see and know the road...
is it very funny to say that we go to Pulau Pangkor and visit there Cyber Cafe?
ya we are to boring and we surf net at there...
the resort owner tell us we can have BBQ at outside our room...
so after that we bought some beer sausage fishball and chicken wings as our dinner...
i am the only girl with them...
so i help them deal with those chicken wing...
although the owner help us wash d...
but to seasoning them...
i do the job and it was my first time touch uncook chicken...
and then we start our BBQ night...
i was happy with them...
talking and eating amd drinking...
is 10 pm something...
i feel tired and went back to room rest...
but the food still not finish...
the two big guy talking eating chatting to finish them slowly...
midnight we end up our first day trip and back to our room sleep...

Many Things Happen Lately~

i just realized i have 3 months didnt spend time at here...
April was busying my final test...
May happen a lots sad things and working...
while June...
consider free now...
just wanna write down everything i remember which happenned among the time...
think i will spend a lots time a here today onward...
i have long time didnt go out with my friends...
last month after that incident i went to have a part time job...
now only resign...
and after resign...
everyday i hide myself inside my room...
just dont feel wanna to go out from my room...
dont feel wanna communicate with everyone inside my house...
and even some of my friends...
dont know why...
just feel lack of energy...
i hope the time pass faster...
i wanna leave this home...
and back to my study...
i tell myself hold on...
just one month left...
i know the time will pass soon...
as i watch movie from day to night...
what a boring life...
i have one month didnt talk with my parents...
i dont want talk to them a single word...
i also dont want to hear their voice beside my ears...
is suffering to hear them keep mentioning the incident...
like the incident never over and they never forget or put down...
that is why i feel want to run away from this house...
i find a part time job...
work from morning 7 to night 7...
back home also tired d...
so i no need to care about them...
for me...
my house is just a place for me to sleep...
i dont like this kind of living...
i also dont want think like that...
just...
from that day...
everything change...
our family relationship had become negative...
i will not improve it and it will also never improve...
i prefer become the stranger inside this home...
whenever you all still talk about this matter...
then i will be like that...
ignoring...
i hate people keep talking the same thing i dont like beside my ear...
if i want to hear...
you say one time i will hear...
the more you say...
the more i hate you all...
this is my attitude that you all never know...
i really dont want to pass life like this anymore...
please...
let go me and time pass faster...
i want to leave...
once i back to school...
i wont back until sem break...