Is Time To Give Up?

i am so tired...
yesterday sleepless...
i sleep at five o clock...
talking phone with one good person...
he always accompany me when i am sad...
he told me a lots what he know...
he share his experience with me...
although my stubborn made him mad sometime...
he still accompany me...
i ask him should i give up...
i ask him what should i do...
i ask him am i very silly...
i ask him must i do like that...
i ask him many many question...
and even told him a lot of my story...
he said i shouldnt treat him that good...
he said i mustnt keep finding him...
he said i must wait for him to find me...
i know his opinion is good for me...
he always try his best to solve my problems...
but i am doubt about myself...
can i really do like that...
i think mostly i cant...
i am really really love him...
i dont want he leave me...
i dont want my life without him...
can he really feel what i want?
i will wait for him...
i will no give up...
i will love him...
FOREVER...

Its How Many Time Get Hurt?

why you still cant truely know what i think...
and still want argue with me...
we have been together for 7 months...
not a short time...
you cant feel that i am jealous?
i just dont want you call her...
i dont want you treat her no matter how you feel uncomfortable with her word yesterday...
do you know you got how long never call me?
do you know you have neglected me for how long time?
i have been try my best to suit myself with your busy life...
why your first call so far is to her...
have you think how my feeling?
maybe you call someone not close with me i dont mind that much...
but you call her...
she is my best friend...
i mind you become closer with my best friend...
if i am there i really ok...
but i told you i dont want go out today already...
why you still want call her and ask her out?
is it if she said ok then you will go out alone with her?
luckily she didnt say ok...
if not...
i cant imaging how hurt my heart will be...
i understand what kind of person you are...
but did you know what kind of person i am?
why you must take that serious with her simply said word?
last time you said you want treat her...
i accept that reason and i treat...
but today's poor reason is really unacceptable...
she just simply said want ask you treat...
then you want to call her and go out eat with her alone?
have you ever think about my feeling if you really go out with her alone?
today is our 7 months anniversary...
why we must argue at today...
and yet is because of my best friend...
please try to understand how i feel...
not that easy going with just telling me what you going to do, doing and did...
i hate heart broken feel...
i hate keep crying because of you...
i hate everytime we argue then i have to cry alone...
i thought we can together happily...
we already have less time to contact...
how come still got time to argue...
please dont always is me who tolerate...
do you know the more i tolerate...
the more i get hurt...
i love you very very much...
so i always did my best to keep our relationship on...
have you try your best?
i hope someday you are...

Refresh My Memories~

it just five days ago...
but this five days...
i keep thinking about him and our date...
so sweet and happy...
14 december 2009...
you didnt go to work...
but come to find me...
bring me to KFC...
so happy can have lunch together...
with you...
after lunch...
we went shopping and for movie...
can holding your hand walk around for window shopping...
feel sweet and happy...
can let you hug when watch something...
feel warm and surprise...
3.45pm reach...
we move to cinema...
for our storm rider II...
we sit at the couple sit...
watch movie together...
really really touching...
we have been so busy recently...
long time no spend time for a movie together...
i apprecaite the time at cinema...
sit just beside you...
holding your hand...
hugging each other...
is 5.45pm...
the movie end...
i follow him go back his house...
i accompany him whole night at his place...
we talk many things...
long time didnt chatting...
he is quite busy lately...
i miss a close talk time with him...
and glad i have it today...
is 11.15pm...
he send me back home...
he drive very slowly...
maybe we both also not willing to separate soon...
finally reach my home...
he said is late and danger...
keep saying want to send me back until my house...
really touching for his caring...
we end up our date with a hug and goodbye kiss...
i walk back to my house...
he walk back toward his car...
i am really really happy for that day date...
thanks dear...
i wish for another swwet date...