Feel Disappointed~

i have been very busy recently...
no time spent at here...
i had been gone his house since wednesday...
i stay there until just now only i come back...
i am really happy he said he want to fetch me that day...
i also spend an enjoyable days with him...
suppose i come back yesterday to hostel...
we are in the way to penang bridge...
suddenly he ask me want to go back or not...
because he plan to send me back at friday at first...
then i ask really?
then we go to have our supper together...
at there he said he saw his ex-girlfriend in front after she has leave...
he never told me when she is still there...
i never have chance to see her once...
and then i ask him a lots question about him and her...
i feel much more unhappy when he told me more about their thing...
then morning he yet sms to her...
don't know why i feel so uneasy...
then today he back from work...
he look so tired and he concentrate play game...
less talk with me...
even just now ate supper together...
he no talk much with me also...
finally i reach my hostel...
before he leave...
he no leave me a good bye kiss...
i miss him for one week can't see him...
he yet don't want give me...
i am really really disappointed...
why he never know what i want...
am i very hard to understand?
maybe...
but i always keep my feeling inside my heart...
will never let him know...
i don't want bother him and influence our relationship...
he also don't know actually i mind he sms that much with other girls...
i know i make him boring for this exam season...
he don't let me sms him...
then he find other girls sms...
i feel more disappointed is...
a girl from sarawak called him hubby...
he never ignore...
although he got tell me...
just when i wanna start to tell him i mind...
he then feel a bit angry...
said i really shouldn't like that...
he always stress she is from sarawak...
impossible for them...
i not scare they together or what...
i just very very mind other girl call my darling hubby...
if simply a girl also can call him hubby...
then who am i?
i always trust him he love me...
just sometime he never think about my feeling...
i never said no when he sms with other girls...
just want that he not too over...
he know more and more girls continuously...
everyday sms with them...
and never sms with me...
he said he want let me concentrate study and he really boring if no sms with people...
he told me before he will never find them after my exam...
but today he said will still reply him...
i am more and more disappointed with him...
when our relationship become more and more stable...
i miss the day we just together...
he really really really nice and sweet with me...
never do anything will make me sad...
i don't know how hurt will me after we have together for long long time...
since now just half year...
but i will still stay by his side...
as long as he still love me...
i won't leave him...