I Know You Worried~

do you know everyday i feel want to see your sms that much?
ya...
i know you always worried about me...
as you told me before...
the things you care me that much is...
first, my education...
second, have i eat...
third, have i bath...
fourth, have i do homework...
fifth, have i rest...
i know everytime i tell you i got exam or homework...
you will always give me the same respond...
you will surely said...
"i dont want sms you first, wait you finish le only sms with you"...
dont you know that if i really need to study hard i will automatically didnt reply you?
sometime i study until so tired and boring...
really wish you can send me a sms to cheer me up...
but you always that stubborn...
you said you wont keep back anything you said...
haiz...
i really hope you know what i want sometime...
i know you worry me...
you scare you will make my result worse...
or maybe cause me cant graduate...
then you cant married me...
i remember everything you told me...
but i wont tell you what i think...
coz i wont get the think i want from you...
coz you said you really worried about me...
well...
nevermind...
i have suit myself with your behavior...
at least you are for my own good...
i appreciate...
thanks...

I Will Do For You~

got one thing i keep forget to write down...
is a very important thing in my life...
after that day you said you wanna break up with me...
at the end you keep back your word...
i promised you i will tell my parents about our relationship...
i will bring you go to my house...
it was 21 of February...
is the last day of my new year holiday...
and i promised you i will bring you to my house that day...
and tell my parents you will fetch me back hostel...
is 2.30pm...
you reach my house...
as you promise me...
you have a hair cut and dress proper...
i am so scare at first...
but then i tell myself if i didnt say now, i will need to say it later too...
why not i brave a bit and bring him go to my house...
he just in front my door...
i knew once i bring him inside...
he will very happy and never argue with him with the same problem...
once i go inside my door...
i tell my mom, "he fetch me go back"...
my mom look a bit not happy at first...
but then maybe she saw got him there...
she no scold me...
later he sit at living room...
my dad come in and saw him too...
they talk a few words...
my mom ask him wanna have a drink and give him a drink...
later my mom give him an angpao...
after 5 minute...
i am packing done and we leave...
the moment i sit at his car...
i feel glad...
luckily my parents no scold me...
maybe they think he just my friend...
but i dont care...
at least i had done whatever i promise you...
you are the first boyfriend who see my parents and talk to my parents...
no others...
i will d anything for you...
just to let you happy...
to write down here...
as my memory...
is a meaningful and special day...
it prove to you how much i love you...

Whats Wrong With Me~

i wonder why i always write down my sad sorry at my blog...
and so less write about something happy...
dont know whats wrong with me...
today feel so miss you...
maybe this few days we less chat and sms...
you said you dont want reply me until my exam over...
after my exam your turn to busy...
and next day i am busy with my whole day class...
you said after class only find you...
this week cannot go to your house...
sad...
but glad you promise me will find me at sunday...
i am so eager for the day coming...
i miss you so much...
today is the 299 days we have been togethered...
one more day then reach 300 days d...
i wonder the time past so fast...
i still remember the day we know each other...
and the day we together...
i was touching that day you said you want to tell me a real story...
in fact you are telling me our story...
you can remember every detail at that day we together...
is 16 of May 2009...
we had pass together the Mooncake festival, Christmas, my birthday New Year...
Valentine day, your birthday and Chinese New Year, Dong Zhi so sad i cant by your side...
sorry...
i promise i will by your side next year and also the following year...
one thing i would like to say thank you to you is...
thanks for your valentine gift...
the phone you give me i am really really happy and surprise...
i just realize you can do that much for me...
i know you really love and care me in your heart...
thanks dear...
MUACKS...

Again And Again~

5 of march...
the second day with you...
we were so good at the beginning...
but at that afternoon...
i mada you angry again...
ya i my fault...
i mistakenly said something...
and burn up your tempered...
i was no heart...
i just worried about you...
maybe the word i said sound selfish...
i can feel it later i was alone...
i blame myself...
you just put me aside after reach your home...
i just follow you go inside your house at the back...
you never stop waiting me and turn back looked at me...
you hide yourself under a pillow at a corner of your bed...
i was alone at another side...
i cry suddenly...
even i had cry while inside the car...
due to you scold me...
i was upset...
i cry beside you...
you just ignore me...
i cant hold on anymore and run to bathroom take a bath to cold down...
i spend about half hour inside bathroom...
just let the shower head spray out water toward my head...
my tear mix with the water...
cant separate...
after i calm down i go out...
back to your room...
you just plan to go out...
you ask me stay at your house and study...
you just leave...
after you go out not long time...
i send you an apologize message...
and i keep my sadness and start my assignment...
about ten o clock...
you come back a while...
before you leave again...
you look not angry le...
you call me and ask me study...
i am happy that moment...
later your sister ask me to call you see whether you want to eat supper or not...
i call you and you really pick up...
i ask you thing and you answer me normally...
i know you no angry me d...
later twelve o clock you come back...
i wait you come back only eat together...
once you enter the room you already come to my side...
i feel sweet...
later you serve me eat and prepare everything at the table...
i feel happier...
and the rest of the day...
i not dare mention about that again...
we end up our date happily until sunday...
i use to tell myself before that i will never make you angry anymore...
i was really no heart to make you angry...
sorry dear...
i will learn from this lesson...
i love you...